Carpe Diem and loving life!

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The one thing that I have learned from this past weekend

is how much all of the little things don't matter.

I've been stressing myself out lately

thinking about my friends...new and old.

Stressing over how I have lost touch with some

and thinking maybe I did something wrong.

My close friends have recently told me i'm "so nice"

and sweet and wouldn't harm a fly...how I am an inspiration...

but everytime I heard it, I would doubt myself. 

I would thank them for their kind words, 

and in the back of my head I would scoff at the remarks

and not be able to believe the words that they said are true.

Overall i've been down

and all of it has been sitting in my head and making me miserable.
Friends I lost, words that were said, actions that were made...

but ever since last Thursday night, none of that has mattered.

I have never been more content

Those people that have hurt me, I am finally ready to let go of

I know that in the past things happen than we can't change

but I shouldn't be focusing on it 4 years later

worried about what they still think of me.

What does it matter?

Why should I care?

This is a time in my life to worry about myself.

To get healthy, to grow, to make friends and expand my wings.

To try out new things, like books and recipes and activites.

To make a healthy change in my life

and finally fully focus on working out AND eating healthy

not just working out, and then coming home to fried food and ice cream....

or both in one with some fried ice cream!

If my little Mia,

can come back from the cusp of death

To win the battle for her life, when the doctors couldn't even find out what was wrong.

To do all of that in only 3 days time,

and on the 4th day come home to run outside

breath in the fresh air, chase the birds, run after the squirrels

and wag her tail in the sunshine...

I can finally turn my life around.

I can lose the weight.

I can feel beautiful again.

I can focus on my studies and keep pulling my grades up (3.75 so far)

I can read a new book

I can learn a new trick

and I can let go of the past

Embrace my friendships

Love my family

Adore every moment with my amazing fiance

Fall in love more each and every single day.

I am a nice person.

I am a creative person.

I am a catch.

And that is my new personal mantra.

A sign to say to myself each day.

A message to let yesterday roll off

and embrace today with my head held high.

 

Last night, I ordered a new book called  

Naturally Thin: unleash Your SkinnyGirl

by Bethenny Frankel.

 I realize she may not be the guru of being healthy,

but i'm looking to the book for possible positive changes

small things I can do to make everything a little easier.

It came highly recommended from another blogger

(sorry I can't remember where I read it, if it was you THANK YOU!)

Im hoping it will be just that extra push I need...

and when i'm done reading it,

I may just pass it on so that it can bring some insight into one of your lives as well!

I am hoping to hear back about the interview 

I went on a week of so ago any day now.

Keep your fingers crossed for me.

But if it doesn't work out, I know another job will come along.

A positive attitude can move mountains.

This will pass and I will have an amazing career.

the perfect addition to my already amazing family and home.

Here's to today, tomorrow and the day after!

♥

Jenni 

PS- Last day to enter the giveaway! Enter by 7 p.m. central time tonight!